Cult affects my health

I had joined a religious cult. I can’t remember if I joined it or if I was forced to join. I became sick (I am currently sick with an ongoing infection for at least the past month – I am very worried about it) and Cult members had their own methods to “cure” me that I was trying to resist. I was being chased and tied down and attacked and forced to say things – I recall “Caligula!” – and submit for examination. I woke up with my arm over my head trying to say or not say “Caligula!” and was very scared. I don’t remember any one from my Circle being there to help or assist or make things better.